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Random amusement… yet oddly appropriate…

Posted in funny, personality, randomness with tags , , , on July 11, 2008 by Phil Alcorn

I’m aware I haven’t posted in a while… It isn’t that there hasn’t been blogworthy news, quite the opposite in fact… it’s just that I’m not really sure what to say about it all…

There is, however, another post on the way. In the meantime though, this was todays edition of a webcomic I’m kinda partial to… I found it oddly relevant to my own life…

Now, as for me, is my body clock east or west of where I live???

Now, as for me, is my body clock east or west of where I live???

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Interaction…

Posted in blog, confused, creative, friends, randomness on April 2, 2008 by Phil Alcorn

Ok. Something new. Something unexpected. Something that may well fall flat on its face, though I hope it doesn’t.

I’m looking for interaction from YOU. Yes, you. You, reading this blog, right now. I am looking for you to leave a comment to this post. And in that comment, I am asking you to say what the word ‘hope’ means to you. And I for one certainly hope you take me up on this challenge…

Thanks guys. Peace out.

photos and thoughts…

Posted in christianity, friends, photography, randomness on March 14, 2008 by Phil Alcorn

My good friend James took me on a drive tonight to find a place where our view of the sky was not hindered by the city lights. It’s amazing, you know, just how much light pollution affects the night sky…

Anyway, the reason we went out was because a friend of mine had charged me with taking some photos of the night sky for him. So we set out at 3am to find a suitably dark area in the country somewhere. Eventually we found the perfect spot – the top of the Boghill road just outside Mallusk. We set up the tripod (during which i received a quite painful hand injury!) and took some photos of the stars. Using a shutter speed of 30 seconds, we got some quite nice shots, though it was difficult to get the focus right. After we were satisfied with the results of the sky shooting, we took a couple of shots down over the city lights as well, before heading back to Belfast.

Why tell you all this? Because heading back in the car, a rather interesting metaphor came upon me, and I wanted to record it on here so I will remember it. It struck me how often we pray to God, asking for answers, and wanting to see results right away, instantly. And after a while we grow tired of waiting, and stop looking for the answers. I found an interesting parallel to taking shots of the night sky – with a high shutter speed, you come away with a black photo, hardly any light was allowed into the camera before the shutter closed, sealing the image. However, with a low shutter speed (leaving the shutter open for longer), more light was allowed to flood in, resulting an a clear and beautiful image of the stars in the night sky. How often are we like the first example, the quick shutter speed, looking around for answers to our questions and giving up when we don’t see anything right away. We walk away feeling let down, or disheartened, because God “didn’t answer us”. However, if we were to have patience, hold on as long as it took, keep looking for answers, how much more would we see? How clear the image we would be left with… if we truely waited on GOD’S timing, and not our own.

I could even take this a step further, and look at how much light is let into the camera every second. Not very much, certainly not enough to make a clear image. But as the seconds tick by, the image builds up. Only the same amount of light is let in every second, but the effect of that light makes the image clearer and clearer with each passing second. In the same way, the longer and longer we hold out, actively seeking God, seeking His will, seeking answers, we may not feel like we are seeing more and more as time passes, BUT surely the fact that we are looking and looking and looking will build character and patience within us. The actively waiting on God’s timing will be producing in us a masterpiece of character that God is creating…

Yea, bit of a random post this… I guess the point is just to say to be patient. God will reveal things in His own time, if we are faithful to wait and to look…

same old questions…

Posted in blog, confused, personality, randomness on January 13, 2008 by Phil Alcorn

It’s a curious thing, a blog. I’m fairly certain I’ve written about the following before, but again I find the issue pressing on my mind… just how much can I truely write about here? The thoughts in my head, the feelings in my heart, the issues pressing on me, how much can I safely talk about while still knowing that what I write, others will read. Sometimes I wish to empty myself onto these ‘pages’, just to release what is built up inside me, and other times I find myself with nothing to say. And all the while, that voice sounds in the back of my head ‘are you sure thats ok for the eyes of others?’

You see, the heart, the mind… they’re complex things. Oh, how I long to write and write and write and empty myself… Why can’t we live in an honest world? A world where everything is out in the open, everyone wears their heart on their sleeve, there are no secrets, no cover ups, no censorship…

But, thinking about that, it seems that those times left along with our right to live in Eden. It is interesting though, this train of thought… it has brought me back, once again, to a subject that has often pressed on my mind when writing posts. What is this blog for? I always like to think it is for me to simply ‘verbilize’ some of my thoughts, musings and feelings… a personal space to think, so to speak. But is that all it is? Am I really so naive as to think I am immune to the whole ‘visit my blog and make me feel special’ mentality? It’s true, when people leave me comments, when I know people are looking at my thoughts, it pleases me. I don’t know why… blown up self-importance I guess. But it’s a double-edged sword… the more I know other people read this, the restricted I feel in revealing my inner self. Indeed, I’ve even been warned against it in the past, by some of my friends, and indeed some readers…But come now, is even that thought in itself a blown up sense of self-importance? Do as many people actually read as I think? I know I have a ‘blog stalker’ or two (hey sophie… haha!) but is that it?

So what to do? I crave honesty, I want to be able, I NEED to be able to be honest… but do I need to do it here? Indeed, is it sensible? And are some things best left unsaid? I don’t know… and again the cycle renews itself in my mind.

For tonight, I will contain myself. But I feel sure there will be a spilling out soon…

Random…

Posted in randomness on November 21, 2007 by Phil Alcorn

It’s odd how stupid things can cheer you up… I just had a scary yet good driving lesson, and my housemate just proclaimed ‘I ruined my streak!!’ (he’s playing guitar hero), causing me much laughter at the thought of him ‘streaking’… and I received an email that made me smile quite an awful lot…

I feel happy again. Thank you God for random happiness 🙂

no title…

Posted in confused, personality, randomness on October 13, 2007 by Phil Alcorn

Ok, so I want to make a post… BUT I don’t know what to write…
There are a lot of things I COULD write about… There are some things I WANT to write about… There are some things I SHOULD write about… The problem is that what I want to write about, I shouldn’t. And what I should write about, I don’t want to.

So, instead, I’m trying something different. I’m just writing. Plain and simple, this post is just me. Writing. I have no idea whats going to come out of it, I have no idea if it will amount to any more than even the next paragraph. We’ll see. Apparantly the great literary genius that is J. R. R. Tolkien sat down one day to pen a great war story, a story about the horrors and adventures of World War One… BUT he didn’t know what to write. So he just started writing. And thus, Bilbo Baggins was created, and with him one of the most famous stories in the literary world.

I don’t presume I will do anything like that. But I guess, deep inside, I’m hoping that a bit of my heart will come out in this writing… because it hasn’t been planned. I hadn’t thought about what I’m writing before I clicked on the ‘create new post’ button. I haven’t thought about it now. But that means that what I’m writing now isn’t just me being honest… it’s unrehearsed honesty.

I’ve had a tough week…

There is a world of emotions swirling inside my chest that wants to explode out of my fingers, through the keyboard and onto the screen… thats what I WANT to write about…
There is a mountain of thoughts floating around my head coming from a conversation I had over lunch with a friend on thursday… thats what I SHOULD write about…
But I guess, what I’m discovering more and more is that the things I SHOULD write about, are best saved for a time when I’m READY to write them. And the things I WANT to write about, are maybe best saved inside myself, not to be released to the public.

Because thats the thing with thoughts and emotions…
An idea, a thought, can change the world… but if it is raw, if it is unrefined, if it is unplanned and haphazard… it could just be swept away with all the other ideals and revolutions of the past. I mean, probably the most radical ideas known to man, the teachings of Jesus Christ, were not unplanned, were not unrefined… radical as they were, they were firmly based.
And emotions, feelings, can touch the soul… but if they are thoughtlessly revealed to the public, they can stir up the wrong emotions in others. People end up swept away in the moment, or people end up hurt…

So how DOES one be reserved yet open? How can you be a radical, but well planned? HOW can I achieve… when I don’t even know what I wish to achieve.

To be perfectly perfectly honest, I just want to get away for a few days. It’s all too much, too soon…
But by the same regard, I’m happier knowing the truth than I am languishing under false ideas…

My thoughts need worked through. My emotions need resolved. And these two issues, poles apart though they may be, need settled. Unfortunately, I know the answer isn’t going to be an easy ride…

favourite person…

Posted in christianity, community, friends, personality, randomness on October 11, 2007 by Phil Alcorn

I just went onto youtube to have a look at a funny video I’d been told about, but instead on the homepage I came across a video title that spiked my interest. It was called ‘are you anybody’s favourite person?’, and was a vlog about a girl who had just seen the movie short ‘Are You The Favourite Person Of Anybody?’. She was trying to think if she was anybody’s favourite person, and had come to the conclusion that she wasn’t. Have a look at the two videos there, they kinda set up what I’m about to say…

Needless to say, this got my thinking the same question about myself… am I anybody’s favourite person? I mean, even now, while I think about it, part of me doesn’t think it’s important, but part of me does… Thinking about it, out of my whole life, all the people I’ve met and interacted with, would I actually be anybody’s favourite person?
To be perfectly honest, I don’t think I would be. With the whole span of someones life, I’m fairly confident that all the people I have met would have had time to meet someone far better than me in their lives…

I’ve just caught myself on before I go and list things about myself negatively… that isn’t what this is about. I like myself, most of the time. Yes, there are things about myself I’m not happy with. Yes, I’ve made a LOT of mistakes in the past. Yes, I’ve hurt a lot of people. But I’m also fairly confident I’ve had a good impact on people too. And I also happen to like who God is shaping me to be.

All that being said, I still can’t think of anybody that would see me as their favourite person. But thinking more about it (seeing as I’m writing this blog less than 5 minutes after I viewed those videos) I don’t think it actually matters. Sure, I may not be anybody’s favourite person… does that mean I should stop being who I am? Does that mean I should stop trying to love people as God loves them? Does that mean I’ve failed?
No, I don’t think it does… I think it means that I can’t see the impact I have made on people. The reason I don’t think I’m anyone’s favourite person is because I can’t think of anyone who I have made a positive enough impact on the life of, that they would call me their favourite person.

Take, for instance, me thinking of MY favourite person… Taking into account all of my life, all my experiences… I honestly can’t narrow it down to one person. There are favourite people dotted along the way, people who have been major influences and favourites at different stages and different times… even thinking about right now, over the past year… even thinking about the course of a DAY, favourite people can change, as new experoences are made and people are used in your life for certain experiences at certain times… some people make an impact, and then fade away into the recesses of memory. That doesn’t make the impact they had on me any less significant, any less important. Doesn’t make them any less of a favourite. Some people have just always been there, helping me grow, teaching me things, laughing and crying with me, sharing the banter and the struggles… they are all favourites in their own right. Some people are new, and who knows what time holds… but experiences are shared, and new favourites are born, joining the ranks of the hundreds already present.

And the crazy thing is, these masses of favourite people probably have no idea how much of a favourite each of them are to me. Because I simply haven’t told them, I guess… perhaps I should, the ones I can still tell…

As for people who are now gone, from life, or merely from MY life, I’m sure they have gone having no idea how much they impacted me, shaped me… how God used them to make and mould me into the guy I am. But they are no less my favourite people…

So in conclusion, for this has indeed been a somewhat unorganised ramble through my thoughts, I may not be anybody’s favourite person, that I can think of… but whether I am or not, it doesn’t really matter. My life is no less significant for it. And even I don’t know the impact I have made on others, as others don’t know the impact they have made on me. I guess the important thing is not to worry about if you’re somebody else’s favourite person or not… it’s to make sure you love those around you, regardless. Because y’know what? Love has no favourites.