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Interaction…

Posted in blog, confused, creative, friends, randomness on April 2, 2008 by Phil Alcorn

Ok. Something new. Something unexpected. Something that may well fall flat on its face, though I hope it doesn’t.

I’m looking for interaction from YOU. Yes, you. You, reading this blog, right now. I am looking for you to leave a comment to this post. And in that comment, I am asking you to say what the word ‘hope’ means to you. And I for one certainly hope you take me up on this challenge…

Thanks guys. Peace out.

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new beginning…

Posted in blog, christianity, personality on March 13, 2008 by Phil Alcorn

New look… new post… new name… renewed focus……..

I don’t like the way my blogs have been becoming lately. So I’m making a fresh start… thankful for and learning from the past, and setting off once more. Lots has been changing lately. I’m coming to an end of my year on CU committee… it has been a fantastic experience, full of struggles and joys, challenges and banter… I’m really going to miss it. But, time moves on, and my time there is done. I am thankful for what has been, and will continue to learn from it for a long time to come, I’m sure. And new challenges wait ahead – currently I’m set to get more involved with Exodus (a discipleship and evangelistic organisation here in Northern Ireland) in heading up their visuals team at the new centre in Lisburn.

Really stopping to look back on it, I’m actually amazed at how much has changed over the past year. I never, ever thought I would be where I am now, with the experiences I now have. Man, I never even thought I would be 2 days away from setting off to work for two weeks in a country where Islam is the main religion! But here I am, about to head off to Morocco on Saturday with an organisation called Frontiers…

All of this has got me thinking, and I apologise if this seems disjointed (as all my posts lately seem to have been), about my faith. Just last night, a friend texted me to ask what my faith meant to me, how it was evidenced in my daily life. Seemingly they too have been soul searching, and their question spurred my thoughts onward. You see, lately, in thinking about who I am, what I have done, what I have seen, my faith… I seem to be moving from a place of reasoning and structured theology to a place of love, and (more plainly at this particular moment) of hope. Or maybe that’s not a fair comment to make… I still love discussion and the hashing out of theological ideas and theories, the striving to find answers to the hard questions… but lately, although still present, all that seems to have taken a back seat to issues of (for want of a more coherant phrase) hope. You see, in answering my friend’s question to me, I realised that my faith essentially boils down to three things. I have faith in God; that He exists, cares for me, and is working His will in my life. I have faith in Jesus; that He died for me, and is now risen and at the right hand of God, interceeding on my behalf. I have faith in the Spirit; as my friend and guide, nudging me always to face the right direction. I love those around me (or, at least, I try to – often I fail), I love my friends dearly, as I do my family. I try my best to love my enemies, and try my best to love myself. And, most aptly at this time in my life, I have a hope. I have a hope that God counts me as having worth, despite who I am and what I have done. I have hope that I am able to do GOOD while I am here. I have hope that God forgives me what I have done wrong. And I have hope that all I see in this world is not all that there is…

If I were more awake, I would look at that last paragraph and try to make it sound more coherent. But, once again, I find myself tired yet awake at around 4am. So I think I will conclude…

New look, new name. Renewed focus. Hope – I feel I have been led here. Certainly one or two of my more recent posts have been heading in this direction. My faith, at this time, is about hope. Hope and love, and striving after both.

And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. And the greatest of these is love.

same old questions…

Posted in blog, confused, personality, randomness on January 13, 2008 by Phil Alcorn

It’s a curious thing, a blog. I’m fairly certain I’ve written about the following before, but again I find the issue pressing on my mind… just how much can I truely write about here? The thoughts in my head, the feelings in my heart, the issues pressing on me, how much can I safely talk about while still knowing that what I write, others will read. Sometimes I wish to empty myself onto these ‘pages’, just to release what is built up inside me, and other times I find myself with nothing to say. And all the while, that voice sounds in the back of my head ‘are you sure thats ok for the eyes of others?’

You see, the heart, the mind… they’re complex things. Oh, how I long to write and write and write and empty myself… Why can’t we live in an honest world? A world where everything is out in the open, everyone wears their heart on their sleeve, there are no secrets, no cover ups, no censorship…

But, thinking about that, it seems that those times left along with our right to live in Eden. It is interesting though, this train of thought… it has brought me back, once again, to a subject that has often pressed on my mind when writing posts. What is this blog for? I always like to think it is for me to simply ‘verbilize’ some of my thoughts, musings and feelings… a personal space to think, so to speak. But is that all it is? Am I really so naive as to think I am immune to the whole ‘visit my blog and make me feel special’ mentality? It’s true, when people leave me comments, when I know people are looking at my thoughts, it pleases me. I don’t know why… blown up self-importance I guess. But it’s a double-edged sword… the more I know other people read this, the restricted I feel in revealing my inner self. Indeed, I’ve even been warned against it in the past, by some of my friends, and indeed some readers…But come now, is even that thought in itself a blown up sense of self-importance? Do as many people actually read as I think? I know I have a ‘blog stalker’ or two (hey sophie… haha!) but is that it?

So what to do? I crave honesty, I want to be able, I NEED to be able to be honest… but do I need to do it here? Indeed, is it sensible? And are some things best left unsaid? I don’t know… and again the cycle renews itself in my mind.

For tonight, I will contain myself. But I feel sure there will be a spilling out soon…

Akismet…

Posted in blog on September 29, 2007 by Phil Alcorn

The anti-spam patroller of wordpress comments… allow me to present Akismet

To cut a long story short, this wonderful program protects my posts from being hit with spam comments… it detects what it sees as a spam comment being made, and deletes it. The only problem is, it doesn’t allow me to view what it has caught as spam to check if it really IS spam or not.

Over the past few days, it has gone from having caught 20 spam comments to over 40… and part of me is doubtful that the past 20 or so have all been spam… however, I can’t check this, as Akismet has deleted the comments before I can check them… this makes me more than a little frustrated, as the only way around this that I can find is to select that ALL comments made on this blog should be held for my checking before they are allowed to go live! Which is even more of an inconvenience…

Anyway, I’m probably just being nit-picky… but Akismet has been annoying me lately, so I just thought I’d share that with you…

blogging…

Posted in blog, randomness on September 18, 2007 by Phil Alcorn

apparantly I’m 68% addicted to blogging… didn’t know blog addiction was a quantifiable thing…
How Addicted to Blogging Are

betraying myself, and some russian musings…

Posted in blog, christianity on August 25, 2007 by Phil Alcorn

I’ve found it hard to blog lately. And I’ve figured out why.

Recently, I’ve been trying to blog diary style, i.e. whats been happening to me, like a blow by blow account… this is of course in complete betrayal to what I set this blog up for. I realise in my first post I DID say it was to journal my life, but I also said (and I feel this is my style of blogging to be honest) this blog is a place to note down my thoughts and feelings about stuff that I think about… hence the name, musings…

So, I don’t really regret to announce (though I DO regret the annoyance it shall cause some individuals to hear it) that I shall no longer be posting in a diary format (i.e. probably no post about mondays adventures, which were immensly enjoyable and relaxing, but not deep thought provoking!) but shall be working more along the lines of my past posts such as hospitality or feeling creative

So, now that I’ve straightened that out… Connor was telling me earlier that apparantly Putin (Russian President) has reinstated the Cold War policy of long range bomber flights (or in more simple terms, russian bomber aircraft patrolling the outskirts of western airspace). He was telling me how (I think he said more than once, but I can’t remember right now) UK RAF typhoon and tornado jets were scrambled to chase a russian bomber plane away from / out of UK airspace. This is all blowback from the worsening relations between Russia and the UK following the political turmoil surrounding the assassination of Alexander Litvinenko on UK soil earlier in the year.
All this got me thinking about how fragile a state the world is in. Here in Britain, a ‘homefront’ war somehow doesn’t seem as far off a possibility as it once did… There have been more earthquakes in the past 100 years than in all of recorded history before… The tsunami has had men in perplexity at the ‘roaring and tossing of the sea’… there are ‘wars, and rumours of wars’… Somehow, the end doesn’t seem that far off……